I think I just finished the melodies to your song my love. I changed the lyrics a lot. I wish I didn't have to cry when I sing about you. It's just to much sometimes. You are the greatest.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTVhKgT5LI4

I just heard this song. I started to write, and  think I might have written your first song. I wanted you to have the first draft my love. I miss you. I miss you...oh god I miss you so much.

                                       Beyond This Day

I've felt older

Older and over ,

Pulled and tried,

I did my best

To give myself a good life.

With a heavy heart we’ll go

With a heavy heart you’ll know

 (2x) possible chorus

I wanted him,

but he couldn't stay,

I tried my best,

To believe he’s better now.

Nothing shines forever.

I loved with my all,

I’ve given even more.

Grief won’t take a holiday.

All I can live for,

Is an afterlife with you.

 Can this last forever?

Will you be my dream?

I will find you

I will see you.

I will hold you.

When all is left behind.

Beyond this day.

I LOVE YOU LITTLE MAN!

I had a dream last night bout having a little boy. I don't remember all of the details, but when I finally got to see him he was around eight. Long curly hair like your dads, tan skin, skinny, and little teeth like mine. Was it you little man? I remember in the dream laying on my side on a ledge, and beneath me was water and sand and people...the water was so many colors. It was bright and lovely. I wasn't scared of the height as the ledge crumbled underneath me. I wasn't afraid of falling because my little boy was there. I got up to find you, but I couldn't. I turned around and my lovely beach turned into a porch. Even in my dream my fantasy was gone. My heart hurts today.

My love,
I haven't written you in a long time. I'm so sorry, I guess it's just made me too sad to do so. Another year has com before me, and I am just faced with another 365 days of dates...all for you. In six months it will be 2 years since you died. Two years too long...
 Your daddy and I thought we where going to have another baby this weekend. I was five days late, and I was in denial. Then Saturday I let my self believe that it could actually be true. I thought maybe you where coming back. I let myself actually believe, that I had life inside of this dying body. There would be two hearts instead of one...for  moment I let myself be happy. An hour later I found out that I was in fact not pregnant. You where not coming back, and you didn't find a sibling. I just cried.your dad was sad too. He sad that one day we would have more kids, we would get that second chance. When that day comes we would be so happy, but now we just miss you little man. You should be here with us. This isn't the life we where supposed to live, but live it we must. Our love became even stronger sweetness, you made us stronger.
 In two weeks it will be 2 years to the day that I found out that you where living within me. I've decided to kick off my fundraiser for the March of Dimes that day, that was one of the scariest and happiest days of my life, and you deserve to be honored for bringing me such joy and love to us.
 I feel so sad lately, but I feel hopeful. I love you my little dream.