My baby,
 I'm sorry I haven't written. I've wanted to, but it's been a stressful start to the year. Bebop and Simon both got sick, and Bebop is still having lots of issues. I haven't been sleeping well. The thought of watching one of them die reminds me of you, and it still hurts. I don't want to miss you anymore. You would be two and a half...you feel so far away me sweetheart. I never dream of you anymore...no connection. Nothing. But baby boy I still need you. I still want you, and I'll never let you go. Please don't let me go.