Merry Christmas Eve my little prince. I was in the kitchen baking cooking, and I thought about how you should be by my side...I let myself pretend for a moment that you where. Is that crazy? It's just not the same without you. I love you.

Hi my love,
 Mommy did it! I wrote song last night my little love. I was in the shower and it all came rushing over me; the lyrics and melody. I got out of the shower and just started writing until I was done. I wasn't sure what I was doing till I was done. I realized it was a song about us, my love for your daddy, and what life should have been for the three of us. Its about the circle of life, death, and love. It's actually going to be an alt country song my little man. I told your daddy that I thought I wrote a song, and he came over. I was so nervous singing it to see without any music. I cried when I got to the end, because it was about you. I miss you, and I am ready to sing about you. I want to have an ep called Phoenix Forever. I want to write love songs about you, because I love you so much. I'll share the lyrics with you my little man.

                                             THE BEST THING YET

YOU SPOKE YOUR LOVE,
AND I SAID MY VOWS.
I TOOK YOUR RING,
AND YOU TOOK MY CROWN.
SPINNIN' 'ROUND IN MY WEDDING DRESS
YOU WHISPERED IN MY EAR "YOU'RE THE BEST THHING YET"

CHORUS:

I WON'T BE ALONE ANYMORE
YOU LOVE IS GONNA TAKE ME HIGHER GROUND
PICKIN' UP ROSES, WHILE THEY PUSHIN' UP DAISIES
GET IT NOW BEFORE WE'RE DEAD AND GONE


I'LL GIVE YOU THE WORDS
IF YOU GIVE ME A SONG
BUILD YOU A HOUSE
IF YOU GVE ME A HOME.
SPINNIN' ROUND IN MY SUMMER DRESS.
I WHISER IN YOUR EAR "YOU'RE THE BEST THING YET"

CHORUS:

I WON'T BE ALONE ANYMORE
YOU LOVE IS GONNA TAKE ME HIGHER GROUND
PICKIN' UP ROSES, WHILE THEY PUSHIN' UP DAISIES
GET IT NOW BEFORE WE'RE DEAD AND GONE

GET IT NOW BEFORE WE'RE DEAD AND GONE


I WON'T BE ALONE ANYMORE
YOU LOVE IS GONNA TAKE ME HIGHER GROUND
PICKIN' UP ROSES, WHILE THEY PUSHIN' UP DAISIES
GET IT NOW BEFORE WE'RE DEAD AND GONE

YOU GAVE ME YOUR BODY
AND I GAVE YOU A CHILD
MADE OUT OF LOVE
AND ALL WE HAD.
SPINNIN' 'ROUND IN HIS SUNDAY BEST.
WE WHISPERED IN HIS EAR "YOUR THE BEST THING YET"

I wish you were here to sing too.

 

Hello my little love,
 I've been thinking about you a lot lately. Yesterday was the anniversary of you great gramma's passing. I really miss her. I miss you both. Sometimes (even though I love my life with you dad), I wish I was in the ether with you. Your daddy and I last night sat in the middle of the kitchen floor and talked about you, maw maw, and your grandma jo anne, and aunt becky. We talked about how we miss you. I started crying when we talked about your grave. I wish I had you with me. I know that you are getting lots of love wherever you are. I know you are the shining star, but I'm selfish and want you all to myself. It's just not my time yet to join you on the other side. I hope you like the swan ornament I picked out for you for our tree. I wish you could be here to celebrate the holidays with. You belong here. Baby boy, how long will this pain last? This hole...it never closes. I hope I see you in my dreams soon. That would be the best Christmas present ever. I love you my little man.