Hi my sweetness,
I've been posting about the still project all over the internet, and I hoped you liked the video. I miss you honey. Today is Elana's birthday, please give her hugs, because somehow I know you are friends too. Phoenix, this weekend we were talking about Max's birthday after we bought his donation gifts, and then I started talking about you, and guess what...you song came immediately on. I looked at you daddy with such a shocked face, and started crying...but they where good tears baby. I just love you so much, and I love every sign I get from you. You are my angel honey.
I feel like people are forgetting about you, when I first lost you people really seemed to care. When I finally got back on facebook people went out of their way to help in anyway for your memory...now people just read over what I post about you now (except for a few amazing people, that I am sooo truly blessed to keep fighting for me, and you my love). It's like people feel like I should just stop talking about you, and that will never happen..you are alive within me my baby boy. You will always be alive, you will always be talked about in our home, and if people don't like it then they can kick rocks. I love you with everything in me heart baby boy.
Phoenix, if you can...can you give daddy a sign today? He really needs some love, things have been really tuff for him lately, but he is being so strong. He loves us so much little boy. Thank you for bringing us even closer together. I can't imagine a world without him, and it undying love. Even at my worst he never gives up on me. I wish you where here to know him. You would have been the best of friends. Baby I'll write you soon, and I love you so so so so much!!! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELANA!
I've been posting about the still project all over the internet, and I hoped you liked the video. I miss you honey. Today is Elana's birthday, please give her hugs, because somehow I know you are friends too. Phoenix, this weekend we were talking about Max's birthday after we bought his donation gifts, and then I started talking about you, and guess what...you song came immediately on. I looked at you daddy with such a shocked face, and started crying...but they where good tears baby. I just love you so much, and I love every sign I get from you. You are my angel honey.
I feel like people are forgetting about you, when I first lost you people really seemed to care. When I finally got back on facebook people went out of their way to help in anyway for your memory...now people just read over what I post about you now (except for a few amazing people, that I am sooo truly blessed to keep fighting for me, and you my love). It's like people feel like I should just stop talking about you, and that will never happen..you are alive within me my baby boy. You will always be alive, you will always be talked about in our home, and if people don't like it then they can kick rocks. I love you with everything in me heart baby boy.
Phoenix, if you can...can you give daddy a sign today? He really needs some love, things have been really tuff for him lately, but he is being so strong. He loves us so much little boy. Thank you for bringing us even closer together. I can't imagine a world without him, and it undying love. Even at my worst he never gives up on me. I wish you where here to know him. You would have been the best of friends. Baby I'll write you soon, and I love you so so so so much!!! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELANA!
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