Hi my sweet love,
Today is eight months since you where born, and eight months since you died. I miss you so terribly much. cannot belive it is eight months already since you went up above. How is it up there? I hope everyone is throwing you a big party full of love today. Baby I know you are will me in spirit. I feel you around me all the time. just wish I could see you, and hold you in the physical sense...it's hard still being human. I know one day I will be released from this body and burst into a million particles, and will be part of you...and you will me. That will be true happiness. It's funny know...I sit and watch what people wish and pray for. The things that people say they "can't live without"...the depth of ones love for material things. I don't understand that, because I know what it means to really want something with every bit of your soul. I have learned what makes the heart tick, and that i because of you. I am glad that I am free of most earthly wants (except chocolate...man I do love it baby boy). I live of of what I need and the love I have around me. You gave me that gift little one.
We went to go make your quit lat week honey. It was so hard. When your dad and I walked in there, there where children everywhere. I was beyond overwhelmed and felt trapped. Luckily, the lady that was there walked over and talked with me. She lost her son Kyle 13 years ago so she understood where I was coming from. I hope you to have met, and have become good friends. She gave me my part of the quilt to work on and some other materials. I was so grateful for her. I try to keep a positive spirit for you baby boy but I am human and imperfect so I mes up all the time. I am afraid because f all the mistakes I have made in the passed that I won't be able to be close to you when I die. You are beyond perfect, and I am so far from it. I'm sorry I wasn't a better person in this lifetime, but I am trying to get there. My love for you out weighs it all.
Hopefully we will be able to come see you this weekend for easter. Ugh, another holiday to get through, but I am going to make the best of it for you, your dad, and our family. You really have the best dad, he takes such good care of me and we are the best of friends. I never knew someone could love me the way that he does. I will be with him for the rest of my life and beyond. One day we will all get to be together. Wouldn't that be nice?
I love you my little price.
Always-
Momma
Today is eight months since you where born, and eight months since you died. I miss you so terribly much. cannot belive it is eight months already since you went up above. How is it up there? I hope everyone is throwing you a big party full of love today. Baby I know you are will me in spirit. I feel you around me all the time. just wish I could see you, and hold you in the physical sense...it's hard still being human. I know one day I will be released from this body and burst into a million particles, and will be part of you...and you will me. That will be true happiness. It's funny know...I sit and watch what people wish and pray for. The things that people say they "can't live without"...the depth of ones love for material things. I don't understand that, because I know what it means to really want something with every bit of your soul. I have learned what makes the heart tick, and that i because of you. I am glad that I am free of most earthly wants (except chocolate...man I do love it baby boy). I live of of what I need and the love I have around me. You gave me that gift little one.
We went to go make your quit lat week honey. It was so hard. When your dad and I walked in there, there where children everywhere. I was beyond overwhelmed and felt trapped. Luckily, the lady that was there walked over and talked with me. She lost her son Kyle 13 years ago so she understood where I was coming from. I hope you to have met, and have become good friends. She gave me my part of the quilt to work on and some other materials. I was so grateful for her. I try to keep a positive spirit for you baby boy but I am human and imperfect so I mes up all the time. I am afraid because f all the mistakes I have made in the passed that I won't be able to be close to you when I die. You are beyond perfect, and I am so far from it. I'm sorry I wasn't a better person in this lifetime, but I am trying to get there. My love for you out weighs it all.
Hopefully we will be able to come see you this weekend for easter. Ugh, another holiday to get through, but I am going to make the best of it for you, your dad, and our family. You really have the best dad, he takes such good care of me and we are the best of friends. I never knew someone could love me the way that he does. I will be with him for the rest of my life and beyond. One day we will all get to be together. Wouldn't that be nice?
I love you my little price.
Always-
Momma
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