Happy Easter Baby!

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Happy Easter my love! I wish I woke up to you here with an easter basket made. I made one for you aunt, grandpa, and great gradparents. You dad is that the store now so I thought I would write you now. We'll be going to the cemetery later so I can bring you your easter gifts. I hate that the only way I can be close to you little body is by going there. I miss you so much. This should be your first easter, but I guess you are celebrating in heaven. I am sure it is so much more beautiful than anything I can give you.
 I do love the idea of easter though. Jesus rose from the dead. I never realized how amazing that notion is. Baby you aren't dead...I know your body is but you are alive and better than ever. I know you are with me. Even when I google and image to give you on this blog you name came up on the very first suggestion. I know you are life itself. I can't wait till the day I get to start my life with you too. I am going to try not to cry at your grave today, but I doubt I will. I try to remember you is a happy light, and try to think of you growing up in the clouds with all of our family members who aren't with us anymore. I miss them too. I feel so lonely without  you. I hope you find lots of easter eggs up above, and remember me today because I'll be thinking of you. Love you with all of my heart baby boy.
                                             Always yours,
                                                   Momma