Rigt now in this very moment I am missing you with every single bit of my being baby. My arms are developing the familiar ache I have felt since the day you died. My heart is splitting apart, and my breathe in running away from me. I need you so much right now, and all I can do is cry...tears for my son who will never come back to me. I wish I ddn't have to write in this blog...I wish I had your sweet little body and soul here with me. I am falling apart Phoenix, and I wish I could just be with you one more time. How am I going to make it through this life without you...it just seems so hard. People keep telling me it will get better, but n moments like these I feel like it never will be. I'll never ge to hug and kiss you, or play with you, or walk with you, eat with you, dance with you, sing with you, write with you, smile with you cry with you laugh with you, hope with you, dream with you, dress you, feed you, fight with you, swim with you, shop for you, travel with you, paint with you watch the ocean with you...be with you. EVER!!!! I'm so hurt and angry I can't take it sometimes. NOTHING WILL EVER BE RIGHT AGAIN! NOTHING!
I feel so robbed...I feel so robbed.
I'll never forgive myself for listeing to that doctor. I'll never trust anyone again. I did and it cost you your life.
My sweet littel Phoenix please don't forget about me, I think about you every moment of everyday. You rule my mind and heart. How can life be right again...how can I be right again.
It's been six months since you passed away baby...a haltf a year without you. You should be here baby...you should be here with us. I love you will every single fiber of my being.