Hello my little dream,
I just ot finished going through your shadow box I haven't looked in it for a while now, but today I just needed to. Put your metal tags that the wonderful people from the Graham's Foundation sent us. I love having anything that has your name on it. I just love having anything that reminds me of you . They sent us to so I put the others one in a vase with sea shells in it. That way I can always see you name and have you with me. Everytime I look in there I just cry so much, the ache is so strong sometimes Phoenix. When I hold your little blanket close to my face, it's like I feel you right there for just a moment. Fleeting but worth it. I'm missing you something fierce baby boy.
Phoenix, I had the strangest dream last night. I dreamed that your GiGi Janice's things that she left for me after she died where sent to me. I was going through the things with my parents and I fond a stone like footprint among everything. I remember looking at the bottom of it (it was a baby size footprint) and it said Good Samaritan Hospital under it (that is the hospital you my little love breathed your very last breaths in). Then there was some other writing, that in my dream state I understood to be some memorial to a little girl. In my dream I realized that this was a token for the baby the Gigi lost, and for some reason I knew she was a girl. Then in my dreams I kept thinking how strange it was that she died in a hospital called good Samaritan too. I don't know what to make of this dream little guy. No one really knows the story of my grandma losing the baby, not even my father. I guess you do now though, and I am sure you met her. Why I am so certain that she is a girl, I have no reason why. It makes me sad that my grandma and I shared this painful experience and never talked about it. I don't know if your gigi is trying to tell me something or if I am simply just going insane. The one thing I know though is that I will never stop missing you my prince. I love you!
Phoenix, I had the strangest dream last night. I dreamed that your GiGi Janice's things that she left for me after she died where sent to me. I was going through the things with my parents and I fond a stone like footprint among everything. I remember looking at the bottom of it (it was a baby size footprint) and it said Good Samaritan Hospital under it (that is the hospital you my little love breathed your very last breaths in). Then there was some other writing, that in my dream state I understood to be some memorial to a little girl. In my dream I realized that this was a token for the baby the Gigi lost, and for some reason I knew she was a girl. Then in my dreams I kept thinking how strange it was that she died in a hospital called good Samaritan too. I don't know what to make of this dream little guy. No one really knows the story of my grandma losing the baby, not even my father. I guess you do now though, and I am sure you met her. Why I am so certain that she is a girl, I have no reason why. It makes me sad that my grandma and I shared this painful experience and never talked about it. I don't know if your gigi is trying to tell me something or if I am simply just going insane. The one thing I know though is that I will never stop missing you my prince. I love you!
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