Oh God Phoenix...
this is it. The last hours of your life...this time last year I was at the hospital being told you where fine. I wish I could turn back the hands of time...
At 2:14 am you will be born again my love...at three am you will die all over. This time it will be for good...I won't be able to look back as and say...this time last year you where alive. You will be dead, dead, dead...
I don't know how I have made it through...or how I will make it through. I wish I could have stayed longer at your grave sunday. I hope you liked your balloons and bears. I should be throwing you a real party, but instead I am here wish I was with you. How do I do this? I want to freeze time...I want you back. I want sooooo bad. I can't stop thinking about you, and those short moments I had with you little body and soul. I am so sorry you suffered. I am so sorry for so any things. I will try my hardest to smile tomorrow on your birthday. I wish I knew what kind of cake you would have liked.
Please be with me tonight my darling. I need you more than ever.
this is it. The last hours of your life...this time last year I was at the hospital being told you where fine. I wish I could turn back the hands of time...
At 2:14 am you will be born again my love...at three am you will die all over. This time it will be for good...I won't be able to look back as and say...this time last year you where alive. You will be dead, dead, dead...
I don't know how I have made it through...or how I will make it through. I wish I could have stayed longer at your grave sunday. I hope you liked your balloons and bears. I should be throwing you a real party, but instead I am here wish I was with you. How do I do this? I want to freeze time...I want you back. I want sooooo bad. I can't stop thinking about you, and those short moments I had with you little body and soul. I am so sorry you suffered. I am so sorry for so any things. I will try my hardest to smile tomorrow on your birthday. I wish I knew what kind of cake you would have liked.
Please be with me tonight my darling. I need you more than ever.
I'm sitting in my car gathering energy to walk into work. This is so beautifully written and I'm crying for you and Phoenix. This is not at all how you should be celebrating. But it is:( HAPPY BIRTHDAY Phoenix. By the way you have absolutely nothing to be sorry for.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your support suzanne...you are so amazing!
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