Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and what I am thankful for most is you.

Hi Honey Bear,
 Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. You should be with me sharing the day with your daddy, and family. We are baking pies tonight, but for soe reason that notion has made me cry all over again. These tears aren't ever going to end. I wish you were here my love. It's not fair, you should be here. I was so ecxited when I pregnant with you  to celebrate with you for your first year. Now I am just trying to be strong for your dad, put on a happy face and make the best of it. I know he willbe thinking of you to tomorrow. I just don't want to cry in front of him again. He always comforts me when I break down but I know it hurts him. Please baby boy give me the strength to not lose it the next couple of days. It's so hard doing all of this without you. I miss you so much its breaking my heart more and more. I'm just trying to be strong...that's what I have to keep telling myself...stay strong. I just love you so much and wish you where here to hold but your not...your gone and I am left here to live without you. I need to go to the cemetary soon to visit you. I bought you a little christams bear that matched the one on your grave marker. It's the onyl thing I will be able to get you for christams. Decorating your headstone instead of your christmas tree and presents. Ugh I hate these hellidays now. I hope that changes one day for you my love.
 I miss you so much baby. I hope you are with me today, tomorrow and always.
  Thank you for you baby. I love you with all of my heart.
I gotta go now, you daddy will be home soon, and I want to clean my face up so he won't be sad when he sees me.
       Love you always baby-
         Momma